Do you ever get an overwhelming fear of being alone?

Is it normal? To get such a deep feeling of loneliness and such a big fear of being forever alone? Or is it just me?

It's that time when you find yourself sat alone, trying to work out who you friends are and who you are as a person. It's that moment when you realise that you don't even know what you want for yourself and what's best for you.

You sit there wondering why you've still not met your Prince Charming or your Princess, asking yourself whether it is just you. You automatically tell yourself yes, yes it is your fault. And if you already have a companion, you sit wondering whether they really love you, or whether they'll actually stay with you. And once again, you go against yourself and tell yourself that no, they don't really love you. 

You then think about your family and question whether they actually love you, whether you turned out how they wanted you to. You tell yourself no, no you're not good enough for them.

The truth is that everyone feels lonely at times. The truth is that you are loved, everyone is loved. You are good enough too! And if you find people leaving you, well that's their loss, you'll just find someone else along the journey called life.

We all question whether we are worthy of any friends, or partners, family, etc...

We ask ourselves whether we should be different, change who we are to get where we want to be. 

So many set New Years resolutions to be a 'new person'; we've all heard the phrase 'new year new me' haven't we? Yes I thought.

The truth is that we shouldn't have to change ourselves to feel as if we can live happily. Everything happens for a reason, we all find friends at different points in our lives, we all find partners at different points in our lives. We all develop differently, find out things at diverse points in our lives. We are all people. All people trying to find our happiness. Nothing happens at set times. It's not like we have a set time to find a best friend, or a set time to learn how to read, of how to speak. It happens when we let it happen.

Our happiness depends on several things:

1. How much we BELIEVE in ourselves. 

2. The people we surround ourselves with. 

3. The way we think; positivity is always a choice we should take! 

And probably a lot more...

My New Years resolution is to never prevent or suspend my happiness. I hope to learn to accept that happiness isn't permanent and no one is always happy all the time. I am also hoping to accept that just because someone has something I'd love to have, I probably also have something that someone would love and I should enjoy that. 

I am also going to make many more plans for this next year and encourage myself to meet new people and experience new things. The world is a beautiful place and we all still have a lot to explore.